Companionship

It sucks, how much I depend on others for companionship. I always need people to be there for me to comfort me, in my time of need. When all seems to fail, the first thing I want to do is call someone and just Vent. And if you know me, that's what I do best. All I do is vent about everything and anything. No matter what the topic maybe from girls all the way to grapes. ( not really grapes, but you get what I mean) Just recently I can see how much friends effect me on a daily basis. Only two days of school have gone by and yet I feel so alone. Not having many people to talk with and not having many close friends in class. It sucks so much, and its so pathetic. How is it that in the first two days of school I feel so alone? I wish I could have a person there for me, whenever and where ever, but I know deep in my heart that I shouldn't be looking for that satisfaction in friends or family. I should be looking and yearning for that satisfaction from God. Only he can provide me with that love, which I search for in my friends and family.And as time goes on I know I will still fail to seek Christ first and foremost, but by the grace of God, he will always be there for me. No matter what I may have done. And that's the indescribable beauty of my Lord, Jesus Christ. May I seek you in the mist of my troubles but also in the times of jubilee.